RAW

I'm not going to start at the beginning.  I'm starting from right here, right now.  What I'm dealing with at this very moment, and that is Letting Go.  There is this inherent part of me (and all people, I believe), that wants to fall back into the groove.  My old habits.  So much of every single daily life is mundane, and habitual, yet it is the very substance and being of your life.  I sit here and wonder if I'll ever have my kitchen back to cook in.  The office.  What about the office? The bills!  I don't even know what my new mortgage payment is per month.  I paid that mortgage every month for almost 13 years, and just like that, it's gone?  Really?  How can every little thing like that feel like SUCH a LOSS when you didn't slowly let it go, willingly.  Even if I HAD slowly, willingly let everything that I've lost or leg go- go,  I would still be grieving and suffering a loss. So.  How does one move on? ...